What am I Running From?

Thrown for a loop all the way back around to you.

Thank you, AI

What am I running from?
My hands go up when you draw near - 
Stay away! Stand clear! 
I'm afraid of hurt. 
I'm afraid of love. 
I'm afraid of you here. 
Your face a shadow. 
Your form unknown. 
The dream, the desire, 
Longing to be known. 
Ready for this, 
But then again, not yet. 
To love is loss. 
I'm afraid of loss. 
And so I run, like Jonah. 
My emotions tossing, 
The inevitable coming, 
When really I'm sinking, 
Thrown for a loop
All the way back around 
To you. 
God bringing this stubborn child 
Home. 
Because home is where the heart is. 
Redemption is possible. 
But unlike you, 
I'm the one
Who needed it most. 
Love is scary. 
Love is hurt. 
Love is loss. 
But love is patient. 
Love is kind. 
And it never fails
To keep and find. 
God has my heart. 
And now you have mine. 


~ Sierra Westerholm

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Thank you for reading! I wrote this poem near the end of April, vocalizing some feelings I’ve felt for awhile, and which, praise God, are finally starting to lift (let’s just say it’s been a long evolving process). I strongly believe in writing honestly, and giving a place to say what other people may be feeling, but don’t know how to put into words. This is for those singles who have been hurt by relationships, and are afraid to give their heart out again. And even for those married, who are weary and worn out, and afraid to give their spouse another shot. God’s healing is there.

For those who are reading this and know me lol, let me assure you there is no guy in my life. ;) Nor honestly even an interest. This poem is to the somebody that doesn’t exist in my life yet. The what-if and when. The possibility.

That’s all. Hope you enjoyed, folks! I wrote another poem on a similar vein, so I might post that next week as a bonus poem since they go together.

Have a blessed week!